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to whilom. rachel.
( jess leaves rachel a picture of the two of them that she got in her bag when she first- when she first rolled through the trolley. it's when they're both much younger before they fought, a candid shot likely taken by seth or noah. )
Hey Rachel,
So I know, it was pretty shitty of me to contact you when I knew I was going to be dead in less than a week, but I couldn't not contact you at all. I'm not really good at this already. I don't think anyone could possibly be good at this, but I have to try too. I couldn't let you know what was going to happen. I don't want to put anyone in that position of knowing I'm going to die and then just having to accept it cause I'm really struggling with being in that position myself.
I wish I had been braver. I wish I'd done it sooner. I wish when I walked away from you that I hadn't let all those words get in my head and stop me from being who I should have been the whole time.
Your friend.
I will never not regret all those years that we missed out on being friends, because I was too scared to bridge the distance between us.
You were my first friend. You were the first person who really cared about me, and I should have fought harder for it and for you. I hope our talk at least left you feeling some peace about all of it.
I really hope you get to live a full life- a good life. I hope you're happy. I hope it's full of everything you ever could have wanted even if I guess those wants have to alter a bit cause we're no longer in the same world we used to be. The Rift chose right, bringing you here. You're the smartest, most determined person I have ever met, and beyond that, you believe in what's Right more than anyone else I've ever met.
And that's so good. This broken world's gonna need that. It's going to need you.
Goodbye. Thank you for all the years of friendship. Thanks for taking a chance on a rebellious redhead.
I don't like to think of how badly my life would have turned out and how much shorter if you hadn't. You gave me so much. I kinda want that to be the focus. Not the years we lost so try to think of the good times, okay? Even if I get that's hard cause feelings are hard, and I'm thinking a lot about lost time myself so. Yeah. No pressure.
-Jess
Hey Rachel,
So I know, it was pretty shitty of me to contact you when I knew I was going to be dead in less than a week, but I couldn't not contact you at all. I'm not really good at this already. I don't think anyone could possibly be good at this, but I have to try too. I couldn't let you know what was going to happen. I don't want to put anyone in that position of knowing I'm going to die and then just having to accept it cause I'm really struggling with being in that position myself.
I wish I had been braver. I wish I'd done it sooner. I wish when I walked away from you that I hadn't let all those words get in my head and stop me from being who I should have been the whole time.
Your friend.
I will never not regret all those years that we missed out on being friends, because I was too scared to bridge the distance between us.
You were my first friend. You were the first person who really cared about me, and I should have fought harder for it and for you. I hope our talk at least left you feeling some peace about all of it.
I really hope you get to live a full life- a good life. I hope you're happy. I hope it's full of everything you ever could have wanted even if I guess those wants have to alter a bit cause we're no longer in the same world we used to be. The Rift chose right, bringing you here. You're the smartest, most determined person I have ever met, and beyond that, you believe in what's Right more than anyone else I've ever met.
And that's so good. This broken world's gonna need that. It's going to need you.
Goodbye. Thank you for all the years of friendship. Thanks for taking a chance on a rebellious redhead.
I don't like to think of how badly my life would have turned out and how much shorter if you hadn't. You gave me so much. I kinda want that to be the focus. Not the years we lost so try to think of the good times, okay? Even if I get that's hard cause feelings are hard, and I'm thinking a lot about lost time myself so. Yeah. No pressure.
-Jess