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to womanking. sarah.
( along with the letter, jess leaves a lil care package like what sarah left to her once when she needed. it's much smaller cause it was only what she could find like a tiny bottle of wine, chocolates, a couple of feel good movies, and well, this letter within an envelope )
Hey, so.
I thought about telling you a few times. God, I thought about it so many times, and I nearly did it. I had your name written up there in the journal entry, and I couldn't get anything else to come out. You used to be an angel of death so I figured you'd get the whole: This really can't be changed no matter what. thing.
But in the end, I decided it was still a shitty thing to do to you so I didn't. I didn't want anyone else to have to grapple with knowing but not being able to stop it. Maybe I'm still trying to run from it in my own way. I don't really know. I don't think I'm ever going to stand there being like okay, cool. dying. great. Anyway, this letter's not meant to be all. sad. I guess it's a friggin death letter so what else can it be?
I just. Your friendship meant a whole lot to me. You reached out to me in this quiet powerful way when I thought I'd kinda fucked up all my friendships and I felt completely alone. The worst had come out, but you never made me explain any of it. You just sent me a gift basket, and you decided to spend a girl's night with me when there wasn't anything I needed more than that. We even made our own little club, remember? The Anonymous Parents Suck club.
So thank you for being such an amazing friend and for being so caring.
I remember that night you said you were tired, and I just hope you never feel tired like that anymore. I know a lot of it was being an angel of death, but I know it was more than that too. There was a lot that happened that you had to deal with all at once, and you're like one of the strongest, most beautiful people I know. So I hope now that you're a Valkyrie who doesn't have to answer to a Calling like the one you had before, you don't have to feel tired. so bone deep tired ever again.
Even if there will be some tired days, there always will be but. you know what I mean. Not like before. Not like when the Calling takes over and doesn't let you. yeah.
I hope. I hope for a lot, and this is really really hard. I'm not too great at this. I just hope things turn out really well for you, and you mean a lot to me. I want you to know that. In case I wasn't good at saying it before.
But uh yeah. Goodbye.
God that was awkward, self.
Hey, so.
I thought about telling you a few times. God, I thought about it so many times, and I nearly did it. I had your name written up there in the journal entry, and I couldn't get anything else to come out. You used to be an angel of death so I figured you'd get the whole: This really can't be changed no matter what. thing.
But in the end, I decided it was still a shitty thing to do to you so I didn't. I didn't want anyone else to have to grapple with knowing but not being able to stop it. Maybe I'm still trying to run from it in my own way. I don't really know. I don't think I'm ever going to stand there being like okay, cool. dying. great. Anyway, this letter's not meant to be all. sad. I guess it's a friggin death letter so what else can it be?
I just. Your friendship meant a whole lot to me. You reached out to me in this quiet powerful way when I thought I'd kinda fucked up all my friendships and I felt completely alone. The worst had come out, but you never made me explain any of it. You just sent me a gift basket, and you decided to spend a girl's night with me when there wasn't anything I needed more than that. We even made our own little club, remember? The Anonymous Parents Suck club.
So thank you for being such an amazing friend and for being so caring.
I remember that night you said you were tired, and I just hope you never feel tired like that anymore. I know a lot of it was being an angel of death, but I know it was more than that too. There was a lot that happened that you had to deal with all at once, and you're like one of the strongest, most beautiful people I know. So I hope now that you're a Valkyrie who doesn't have to answer to a Calling like the one you had before, you don't have to feel tired. so bone deep tired ever again.
Even if there will be some tired days, there always will be but. you know what I mean. Not like before. Not like when the Calling takes over and doesn't let you. yeah.
I hope. I hope for a lot, and this is really really hard. I'm not too great at this. I just hope things turn out really well for you, and you mean a lot to me. I want you to know that. In case I wasn't good at saying it before.
But uh yeah. Goodbye.
God that was awkward, self.